its one of those days..where you feel like nothing is going right around your world...i always say its the hormones..i really don't know...and why does seeing your FB statuses always trigger this kind blogging..hahaha...no its not you..i need to let out some of my head hehehehe...
actually..i am not sure..why really small things got me affected these past few days...i cried just the other day..regarding some insecurities at work....getting feedback from my superiors...i am overthinking it...sometimes i always wonder do i still love my work and enjoy it the way it was before...or i am getting pressured with people around me who are better than me at such a young age...i can say i am envious because they look so confident...but i am still hoping they all get successful...hayyyy...or should i really walk out of this industry...hehehehe....but it pays well....*sighs*
another thing...too much expectation from online friends...i was stood up by one of my closest friends when we are supposed to meet...after that event..i feel like i am only one of her friends that got remembered sometimes...i tried to put a guilt trip on her..but i dont think it will work..and it never works....
somehow my morale for the last week has been low...only food and some shopping trips makes me forget...i dont know what to do anymore..
but i prayed to God that i will be letting go..letting go of all the expectations and disappointments...i can only pray that i will be better in reacting to them....
why is such my life!!!!