and here i go again..lols...

alone in the house...after receiving a message from my housemate that she will go out...hehehehe...actually i was outside too..i feel like some negative feelings around me...

i already woke up late..eat breakfast then swam...got a text asking what is our ulam for lunch...and suggested the tortang talong..and i told you...the leftovers not finished yet..we have sayote and chicken adobo..but i was too late already...i got back from my swim..and saw you watching and then eating already...and that's how i feel...something is wrong again..

when you're quiet..in this house...it makes me worried..because i know its something..something is bothering you...as you always say..the house is small..that's why i know when your quietness and just simply being silent or something is bothering you..

on most cases..i can bear the silence..if its just a simple silence..ika nga good vibes na silence..but i can't bear the silence na may hugot..just like what i felt a few hours ago..i decided to leave you..lumabas ako..nagpunta sa rooftop..kahit pano nakalma ako...minsan lang nakakapagod na talaga....minsan di ko na alam gagawin ko...para ipull out ka sa kung ano man iyang kinalalagyan mo...minsan feeling napaunhelpful ko..hay...

Lord give me more strength...

and please please my dear friend...gather yourself and heal na....

overthinking...and my cents on my new housemate :)

hahaha...as i watching and listening the 2014 voices of love concert of martin and regine..i still can't help but to overthink..hehehee my mind is push and pulling...lols

for almost a month..my mind is already crying out...i don't want to hear another realizations..that yes..you don't want him in your life...he hurts you so bad..you can't bear the pain..my ears as well as my whole being has is screaming..move on girl...don't get stucked and be miserable...

and so if your boyfriend has so much pride and didn't want to talk to you...you started it...please stop acting as a victim...*sighs*...sometimes its annoying..you always ask people for opinions..and then just hurt yourself...and who is the one who always will saw you hurt..me me me...i can't take it anymore...

and now..im overthinking..if i feel you are quiet..something's goin' on through you..i feel i need to pull you out of this reverie..because im kinda feel guilty..and you know what..because i can't take it anymore sometimes..i have told to my friend...just for me to get my bearing again..i also did pray to the Lord..because I really need all the strength and wisdom..

i am always be a willing instrument...but as you mentioned...there's only much that our heart can take...i'm sorry if i do sometimes make you feel insensitive...for crying out loud...from 1 year now...you still doubt the answer to your prayer...*sighs*..

oh wells...basta sana the Lord give me strength..more..and more patience and give me the right words to ease  and help with whatever you are going through now...

GGMY

hehehe..finally i was able to watched the talked about lenten special of ALDUB...God Gave Me You...

i didn't cry na masakit sa dibdib lols...but i did cry..when Alden was praying and what Jose said when he told Michael de Mesa to forgive Alden..

my two cents on the whole story..it was as predictable as i have known...hehehe...you got beautiful to act hehehe....but i like the realisations it has incorporated...all in all not bad..

but also another thing, i think Alden and Maine should be out of KS lols...i mean sometimes its hard and surprising to see Maine acting not as Yaya Dub but other characters..i am always surprised you know..still not used to hearing her voice hahaha..maybe i should really catch up with KS episodes..but i tend to be selective hahahaha...

maybe its time for Alden and Maine to be out of Kalyeserye...more challenging roles and projects for them...and its time for ALDUB Nation to be more flexible...both are young and have a lot of dreams..we should let them spread their wings..

if sila in real life eh di maganda but we should not dictate them ahahaha..masyadoh na angkinera ang mga ibang fans..hehehee..both have their own private lives...

sometimes i maybe disappointed pero at the end of the day..we should be thankful that they are giving a part of theirselves to us...kahit di naman nila obligasyon yon...

basta enjoy and chill lang..

Good Luck Maine and Alden..hoping for more projects and challenging roles that will show how talented you are...

a draft post that needs to be publish..written maybe 4 years ago..wahahahhaa

for the last few days im still on vacation mode...demo..i have to work...just came from a short trip to the phils..one week to be exact....and celebrated my birthday there...hihihihi

it was quite a fruitful vacation though very short..i promise myself i will make it longer next time... enough for me to eat all those Filipino foods I have missed...

hmmm it was good trip i can say...i was hesitant at first to go with shanghai-manila route of cebu pacific because it will arrive in manila 4 am(i dont really want to arrive on early morning)...but i had no choice ..but it turned out okay..i was not disappointed like i expected it to be...first, the airplane was not full..the passengers can transfer seats..and i did sleep lying on one row of the plane for the rest of the flight..hehehehe..second i thought it would be a long journey..it was supposed to be a 4 hour flight but we made it in 3 hours or so...and thank God i was not quarantined...bwahaha.because when i came home..my sister already warned that they detained for 5 days just for quarantine....because of the swine flu and mind you...i arrived earlier than pacquiao but its a different terminal(wahaha isingit ba)...

here are few good things that made my vacation fruitful...

- i was able to travel to my hometown in visayas after 6 years, smelled fresh air from the country side, got to see my granny..though she didn't recognize me at first..but i didn't take it against her...i know its part of getting old...

- i was able to finally see and get together again with someone who have a special place in my heart hehehe though it was short....im glad i can confidently say I HAVE MOVE FORWARD...i know I only see him as a friend whom i dearly loved before...

- meet beng-chan..hihhi..i did really enjoy our time together..gomen ne..im such a blabber especially when talking about our ichiban tegoshi..wahahaha..thanks for the compiled videos and of course the fanvid...of my OTP Tegomassu...arigatou gozaimasu...

- ride Philippine Airlines aircrafts ahhahaha finally..and they have cute cabin attendants....(^-^)..now i wanted to ride Japan Air Lines and Korean Air Lines..heehe...


- i finally have the book memoirs of a teenage amnesiac in my hand..hehehe..but i forgot to buy any twilight book..*sighs*..

- meet my old buddies hehehe...demo..why don't i always get a cake on my birthday...hahaha...i was hoping i would blow some candles this year but wasn't able to *sad face*


since i have only limited time i wasn't able to able to meet people that i was supposed to..katie-chan gomen ne....i'll make sure when i go home again later this year..you will be the first one i will meet...

mama jade...err..sorry for my katangahan..hehehe..you are waiting for me in terminal 1 while i was in terminal 2..we missed each other...*sayang....


oh im also sad i did not get the chance to watch the concert of the two DAVIDS of American idol..

on fandom..gee..i miss the tegojin war..when i came back online all people are pissed over it...

ATADAN is a good series..I SO LOVE MAKI here....and yamamoto yusuke gets so lucky getting hugged by maki-chan(im jealous)....hahahaha....if you haven't check out this maki series..you are missing a lot...MAKI's ADORABLE and PRETTY here even in dirty make up...

and kudos to all fanfic writers...especially ryotego romance...you make me fall in love too much with these two guys...but still my OTP is TEGOMASSU(*sighs* I NEED TO SEE THEIR RABUNESS)...nande nande why did the Sweden concert got cancelled..hehee...

#JADINE is REAL

and so i think im gonna fangirl and sqeal...wahahaha..not really squeal..but damn kinikilig ako...

james and nadine was one of the loveteams that got be back to local phil showbiz...as mentioned in a previous post..i love their dynamics..they didn't pressure each other to be a couple..hahahaa...even the showbiz answer were just friends...was acceptable to me...coz for me someday..if good friendship is your base foundation...i think you will go along way...i always shipped people who have gotten comfortable by being friends first hehehe...

if you think about it..from diary ng panget..they have grown up fast and build their own career...i watched some episodes of their on the wings of love...but didn't exactly watch it religiously..hehehe..on most cases i watched those that have kilig moments lols...i'm a hopeless romantic hahahaha i don't want tragedies and drama...

and few hours after their valentines concert...baaamm..they admitted they are real couple since feb 11..as in wow nakakakilig hahahaa...but i think i have already assumed james was inlove with nadine..when I watched a bts clip of james kissing nadine's forehead in leah's bridal shower scene...hahahaa..i always think that guys who kissed girls on the forehead...only means the girl is special and the feeling is mutual...

congrats JAmes and naDINE!!!

i'm happy for you..stay healthy and more kilig projects :D

nuninuni..when will ALDUB announce wahahahaha...or rather MAICHARD!!!

#ALDUB thoughts......

Valentine's day has just passed...i am sure most lovebirds enjoyed this day..as well as families..me..well i got invited by good friends...good meal and chikahan then lazing in my bed..was the perfect way to celebrate this love day..hehehehe...

okay..and so hopefully this will be out of my mind...hahahaa..i need to vent it out..mwahahaha...

how did I discover this phenomenal loveteam...well of course from social network..hahaha FB to exact..i was just reading a friend's post..and then boom everyone on FB is talking about it...

i am not really one avid fan but i can say they got me hooked..i didn't watched or backtrack the episode or clips where they started..unless it's in the flashbacks...which is i think is enough for me...i have bought 2 Yes magazine with them on the cover +1 reader's digest + 1 showbiz magazine with alden as the cover + 1 meg magazine with maine on cover(which I haven't read yet) hehehehe..

where do i begin this one..mwaahaha..aaahhh too much on my mind..about these two people...whom i only know because i watch them on tv and basically don't know me.. ^_^

i enjoy watching them together..they make smile with all of their kakulitan as well as simply just by seeing them smile...and not to mention they make me squeal so much kapag kinikilig ako sa kanila...i know a lot of bloggers and online writers have already discussed their amazing chemistry..and sometimes i can't put it into words to show how much I appreciate and love them thus reading other's people writing makes me say..yes that's true and we think of the same thing...

i am quite surprised by how they changed Philippine entertainment...or maybe i am more just aware because they are all over SNS sites...it always amazed  me when an event like a wedding will become "disturbed" because everyone wants to take picture with them..then post on their IG's or twitter...being a fangirl i will always have envy for the guts of other fans to ask their idols to have picture with them...hhahaa because I cannot do it..i simply want to watch them and enjoy the entertainment they give...

almost 8 months to their journey every one wants to know the real score between is it reel or real...and this is why i decided to write again mwahahaha....i want to have my own piece for Aldub because well not all my friends ship or knows them..hahahaha...gusto ko lang ilabas para makamove on na ako..mwahahahahah

is it reel or real? is it Alden & Yaya Dub? or is it already Richard & Maine? ahhh it keeps on boggling me...as a shipper of so many love teams..i will always hope it was real..but as we all know expectations are different from reality...(i hope some ALDUB fans realized it too)...

when i first watched them especially those episodes before the tamang panahon..i can say..they only make smile because their split screen interactions are quite cute...i don't watch Kalyeserye every day..and well especially if the episodes are quite heartbreaking...i had spoilers from twitter and IG to filter out if i should watch or not..but im still regretting not having watched their cebu episodes...i really don't watch when they are crying..kasi nakakadala sila huhuhuhu...just watching them crying makes me cry..they are effective as actors...so more acting projects please...chos...

when did i realised that these two are so freaking adorable together and i want them to have babies as beautiful as them.. i think it was after watching the kidnapping scene...when alden and maine first saw each other after  their blindfolds were removed..OMG..OMG...those eyes..and their facial expressions cannot lie..i thank the cameraman who captured it....sobrang kinilig ako when alden saw meng's face and he smiled..the dimpled one and his eyes became one line..i think it was one of the moment that i can say alden is kinikilig...hahahaha...and then meng's eyes and smile..it was so pretty like an angel..so imagine me just seeing it on video was mesmerized how much more alden....i think EB did a good job on telling them no contact until tamang panahon..or maybe before...and then so after that..i want to push them together and make beautiful babies like that...but lo and behold...siempre showbiz eto..hehehee...they have their own fandoms and everyone has their own opinion...and i also have mine...

in truth i have my own judgements about them..kahit assumera lang ako at nakikinood sa kanila...
like everyone else..i always thought alden is a  good actor indeed..and he needs to be good to maine and the fans because after such a long time..his time to shine has finally come..though it was not alone on his own...but because he's with meng...i'm sure he have his hard work..but i think also..God has answered his prayer..in the person of meng..hehehe...since babae ako...mas critical ako of alden of his intentions and everything..and well i agree with meng...mahirap sia basahin..siguro because artista na sia ng matagal...everyone thinks its all for the act...but really who we are to judge him or call him nanggamit lang when i don't know him personally...

as for meng..maybe because babae sia..mas softer ako sa kanya...she's a deep girl and self proclaimed introvert...who just comes out of her shell...she's enjoying this life so far not only because she feels the worth in her na..but most of all..pinapansin na sia di lang ng buong mundo..but her family...gives her attention...and they protect her more now...she's an intelligent girl..yun lang siguro..pagdating sa pagibig..careful careful...pero i think marami din talagang nagwarning sa kanya about alden...some are pure concerns maybe some are not...nakakaawa din sia minsan di nia alm kung san nia ilalagay sarili nia..because i think as much possible..she doesn't want to be known as simple Alden's kaloveteam..she wants to make an impact under her own name....and also..she doesn't want to hurt people..but despite taking a peek at her inner self thru some of her tweets and blogs...di ko pa rin sia kilala personally..hehehe and she only knows what's on going on her head and its up to her to open or close it up...

to sum up my thoughts...i think their friendship is real..their BFF thingy..the affection and the sparks is there...they have their own bonding that no one can replace for them..they have their own memories to gather..the next level...road to FOREVER sila lang may alam nun...we should be just thankful that they let us see and hear from their mouths that they have feelings for each other in the way we hope for...SAPAT na DAPAT yon....

sa totoo lang...most of the love team na nagustuhan ko di nagkatuluyan in the end..they have so much chemistry on screen..kahit off cam..pero they didn't end up together..huhuhuhu..so for ALDUB..i'll just enjoy what they give to me...i'll be very happy if nagkatuluyan sila kasi sira ang matchmaking powers ko sa mga celebrity mwahahahahaa.....pero only God knows ALDUB's lovestory...if forever or not..

to meng and alden,
thank you for the smiles and kulitan you always shows to us viewers..it always light up our burdens...thank you for making us believe in love sa mga kilig moments nio...cheering for both of you to reach your dreams...stay as you are...and stay healthy and remember to be God be the glory..

walang forever..mwahahhahahaha

it has been ages since i really flailed with a local tandem/duo or loveteam...it might be because i got really distracted with my kpop, cpop and jpop bias...which seriously compose of less than five groups..mwahahaha..or duo...

this is a continuation post actually..i was talking of a different love team during that time wahahahaa....as i mentioned in my twitter post...after 8 years of not living continually in the philippines...

for the last 8 years of my life i have been out of the philippines my home country..my longest stay was from Nov 2010 until June 2012..my mind and body was already complaining in the first quarter of 2011..lol..anyway there is no connection so i will go to what i am supposed to be writing..

im a sucker for happy ending and yes..i shipped love teams even same sex mwahahahahaa...and even though i only learned of the OTP word in 2009...i know i have been stanning quite a lot of love teams in our local entertainment industry even though sadly most of them didn't end up together..but the kilig they brought to me still the same mwahahahaha....

okay let me recall...im a fan of sharon cuneta and gabby concepcion mwahahaha...you see how old i am...the list below are my fave love teams ever since I learned to match people...LOL..

toni & dingdong - ever since I have watched them in TGIS...and knowing dingdong has fallen in love with toni off cam..these two tugged my heart..i love how lovely they look..even their personal pictures together..and the effort they have done during the LDR..but they didn't have a happy ending as toni said it was passionate romance...toni still unmarried(coz i am assuming she's not single LOl) and dingdong is married

bobby andrews & angelu de leon - who wouldn't love wacky and peach...in TGIS hahahaa..they just really look good together...

jolina and marvin - hehehe they are cute...

oh these was the Gimik and TGIS days...waaahhh im so old..mwahahhaa..okay..fast many forwards lets go to my current craze mwahahahahaa...in the last let me say 2 years..its always a pleasure to watch Filipino movies when i go back home hahahaa...even be updated with the latest popular loveteam during that time...the last 3 are currently the hottest loveteams in the phils as of this writing...

Julie Ann San Jose & Elmo Magalona ( JULIELMO)...when i heard these two sing and rap...its makes you feel those giddy feeling...i was lucky enough to see them sing and rap together in one of julie ann's concert...they have a lot of potentials if only those people around them didn't get greedy..i feel like..even their good friendship was affected...maybe someday when they are old and mature...it they will remember those good feelings...and i can really say "SAYANG" for them...

Kathryn Bernardo & Daniel Padilla(KATHNIEL) - the phenomenal love team of ABS CBN..i love their young love sweet love movies...and well..you cant help but be charmed with Daniel Padilla who is a born charmer exuding the Padilla genes...i haven't watched all their telenovela..hahaha...not really a fan of long acting for them mwahahaha...but still they make me kilig hahahahaha...

James Reid and Nadine (JADINE) -omg those abs by james reid..mwahahaha..nadine nadine..lol..but these two people working together as team..is quite adorable..they are so cute in diary ng panget but their second movie nonsense...mwaahhaa...i love how they complement each other..i mean james as being something super gwapo while nadine is simple yet gorgeous....and both are sexy by the way...
i love their dynamics...

tsaran last but not the least..the latest craze and most popular i believe and i can admit..they are making me half crazy like i was with my kpop idols...mwahahahaha..

Alden Richards and Maine Mendoza aka Yaya Dub(Aldub)...i have been infected by this love fever...and proud to be a member of the AldubNation..mwahahaha...joining in using their hashtags in twitter(which i never did for my kpop and jpop idols..so you see they are special mwahahahahah)
Maybe i will just create a separate post for them..mwahhhaa..i had too much on my mind...