i am still sad

what a way to end the week and start my weekend...the only JE group that i ever follow and stalk and the reason i am into LJ and blogging..and occupied my time..and help me through my stay abroad...broke my heart into pieces...

yes..they did not disband..but the 2 pillars of the group withdrew from NEWS....yamapi and ryo...

it is not really surprising...my favorite JE group has been stagnant for the last two years...and me and the rest of the NEWS fandom patiently waited even just for a single or an album...we will be glad...but when i read the news about the withdrawal....i was like...is this true????then i got sad and mad and disappointed...mad and dispappointment for yamapi and ryo...but more on yamapi..because everyone was expecting he will keep his promise a year ago..saying we will not betray NEWS fans...how come yamapi....were you not touched the fanmade video NEWS fan made and retweeted telling you we are waiting for you....or is it really you cannot take the other members...

and ryo...i can understand you..at least you are apologetic..but but but still...you have managed it..for the last 8 years...and now bammm...you cannot take it anymore....

i am not sorry i made NEWS my favorite group..despite your irrelevancy to Johnny Kitagawa..and despite biasness..i can objectively say you are one of the most talented and promising group in JE that was somehow underrated....and they will always be my favorite group....no matter how many members you have....

all i can say now is...4nin NEWS will have my full support from now on..im not really a fan of solo works now...i know as group...i will support you as group...so

GAMBARE NEWS....we will be waiting for the new NEWS to shineeeeeee.....

i have too much on my mind....

just finished watching SCP Premium with Tegoshi and another japanese artist as guest...i am not sure if its really been a long time since i have my fave pretty boy in JE that watching him on that show...i think he has grown up..on most interviews i always find him intimidating or over confident....though i know my love for him has really went down the drain..mwahahaha...

from being someone who i obsessively love way back before..i managed to maybe mature or became immature as a fan of him...i dont really follow him as a solo artist anymore...i always watched his shows if massu is there..if not...i just read posts or blogs about it...and despite his flaws..somehow i managed to oversee it if he is with massu...

but watching him now..im not sure if they are really rested or whatever..but he seems happy..and healthy...and i kinda like it..massu despite his weird fashion sense..still never ages..and manages to surprise me...and really I LOVE TEGOMASU...and im looking forward to watching them in japan this december...

yey..for surviving six months in my work in the phils...and yey..for being able to travel to korea...and what else...yey for the trip in japan...in december...

i have too much on my mind..that i lost track of themmm but one thing..i miss my tegomasu friend that i flail tegomasu...and i miss mama gay and mama jade....*sighs*