walang forever..mwahahhahahaha

it has been ages since i really flailed with a local tandem/duo or loveteam...it might be because i got really distracted with my kpop, cpop and jpop bias...which seriously compose of less than five groups..mwahahaha..or duo...

this is a continuation post actually..i was talking of a different love team during that time wahahahaa....as i mentioned in my twitter post...after 8 years of not living continually in the philippines...

for the last 8 years of my life i have been out of the philippines my home country..my longest stay was from Nov 2010 until June 2012..my mind and body was already complaining in the first quarter of 2011..lol..anyway there is no connection so i will go to what i am supposed to be writing..

im a sucker for happy ending and yes..i shipped love teams even same sex mwahahahahaa...and even though i only learned of the OTP word in 2009...i know i have been stanning quite a lot of love teams in our local entertainment industry even though sadly most of them didn't end up together..but the kilig they brought to me still the same mwahahahaha....

okay let me recall...im a fan of sharon cuneta and gabby concepcion mwahahaha...you see how old i am...the list below are my fave love teams ever since I learned to match people...LOL..

toni & dingdong - ever since I have watched them in TGIS...and knowing dingdong has fallen in love with toni off cam..these two tugged my heart..i love how lovely they look..even their personal pictures together..and the effort they have done during the LDR..but they didn't have a happy ending as toni said it was passionate romance...toni still unmarried(coz i am assuming she's not single LOl) and dingdong is married

bobby andrews & angelu de leon - who wouldn't love wacky and peach...in TGIS hahahaa..they just really look good together...

jolina and marvin - hehehe they are cute...

oh these was the Gimik and TGIS days...waaahhh im so old..mwahahhaa..okay..fast many forwards lets go to my current craze mwahahahahaa...in the last let me say 2 years..its always a pleasure to watch Filipino movies when i go back home hahahaa...even be updated with the latest popular loveteam during that time...the last 3 are currently the hottest loveteams in the phils as of this writing...

Julie Ann San Jose & Elmo Magalona ( JULIELMO)...when i heard these two sing and rap...its makes you feel those giddy feeling...i was lucky enough to see them sing and rap together in one of julie ann's concert...they have a lot of potentials if only those people around them didn't get greedy..i feel like..even their good friendship was affected...maybe someday when they are old and mature...it they will remember those good feelings...and i can really say "SAYANG" for them...

Kathryn Bernardo & Daniel Padilla(KATHNIEL) - the phenomenal love team of ABS CBN..i love their young love sweet love movies...and well..you cant help but be charmed with Daniel Padilla who is a born charmer exuding the Padilla genes...i haven't watched all their telenovela..hahaha...not really a fan of long acting for them mwahahaha...but still they make me kilig hahahahaha...

James Reid and Nadine (JADINE) -omg those abs by james reid..mwahahaha..nadine nadine..lol..but these two people working together as team..is quite adorable..they are so cute in diary ng panget but their second movie nonsense...mwaahhaa...i love how they complement each other..i mean james as being something super gwapo while nadine is simple yet gorgeous....and both are sexy by the way...
i love their dynamics...

tsaran last but not the least..the latest craze and most popular i believe and i can admit..they are making me half crazy like i was with my kpop idols...mwahahahaha..

Alden Richards and Maine Mendoza aka Yaya Dub(Aldub)...i have been infected by this love fever...and proud to be a member of the AldubNation..mwahahaha...joining in using their hashtags in twitter(which i never did for my kpop and jpop idols..so you see they are special mwahahahahah)
Maybe i will just create a separate post for them..mwahhhaa..i had too much on my mind...

did it again

haahahaha...wow now it will be become an annual thingy...but oh well..i am not really practicing writing online hahaha..not sure why hahaha..

it was surprising to see my post last year..how long it has been..it will be 10 years in 2016...am i not still over you...and  i wonder did i accelerate myself from last year with regards to work..hmmm maybe i did..hahahaa

today i rant on my other blog about work..hmmm should i share my thoughts on my family here...
on positive note..we got a new home...hahaha..finally after all the efforts and help from my siblings..but of course i am still the major contributor..

last monday, i called my father to talk to them and just want to know how they are..it really clutched my heart when my mother started crying and told me about my brother being able to treat his friends to a mcdonalds or maybe drinks..but not even buying my father his milk...and then they started to compare again my generosity...it distracted me until this day..i havent talked to them again even though i am planning to do a family outing when i go home this may just over the weekend...

i know its the biggest issue in my family..of having a sister like me..for my family i am the biggest achiever..my siblings have to measure up to me..i am the point of comparison of my parents...i only realised it recently when i have matured...so sometimes i try to fill the gap by giving them presents materially...but well it doesn't help...my parents still feel..i am the most generous among my siblings..

for me i am not generous..i only give when i have to take something..but enihow..its been boggling me for a long time..how to take these things and talked it out with my sister and brothers...because well..we are not used to opening up our feelings to our family..i know for a fact we will confide in friends more than our parents and sisters..lucky me..my sister and i share some thoughts...
i want to use this blog to have write what i want to say to my brothers and sister...


mga kapatid...first of all thank you for taking care of our parents while i am out of country..maraming salamat at sinasamahan nio sila..

sorry sa mga pagkakataong nadisappoint ko kayo at di kayo natulungan...mapafinancial or moral support man lang..sorry kung minsan you feel di same ang treatment ko sa inyo...ika nga nafefeel nio na may favoritism ako...pasensia na..i always try my best na kung may ibigay sa isa ay mabibigyan ko lahat...pero tao lang..

sa totoo lang..for all these years..wala akong inisip kundi pano matutulungan kayo..pano matutulungan sila nanay...oo napapasaya ko sarili ko..pero di pwedeng dikau kasama sana nga mayaman na lang tayo para di worried sa pera..but Thank God..safe at healthy naman taung lahat..it took me 10 years to finally realize one of my dreams ang magkaroon ng sariling bahay..with of course the help ninyo...indi ako kumuha ng malaking bahay at tigiisang kwarto tau kasi alam ko...sooner or later magkakaroon din kayo ng sariling family...or may sarili na kayong pamilya..actually yung bahay is for nanay and tatay's peace of mind..worried sila kapag pinaalis na sa broadway..wala rin naman silang bahay sa jabong..so eto may bahay na tau..Thank God...

meron lang akong gustong hingin na favor sa inyo...kung maari sana...wag nio pasamain ang loob ni nanay at tatay...or paiyakin si nanay at tatay...alam ko...may mga pagkukulang sila sa inyo...at may kanya kanya kayong hinanakit sa kanila..pero magulang pa rin natin sila..nagsikap pa rin sila para makapag aral tayo di man nakatapos ang iba sa atin at may pagkain na ihahapag sa atin....respeto at pagaalaga lang pwede nating isukli sa mga sacrifices nila...maswerte pa rin tau buhay sila...at natutulungan tau kapag kinakailangan...si tatay kahit pagod sa trabaho..magdrive ng ibang tao..kapag kelangan taung sunduin sinusundo tau...si nanay..kahit naglalaba or kelangan magluto ng baon natin nagbabasa ng kamay kahit nagplantsa ng damit..

kung may mga times na di nasusunod gusto nio or nagkakamali sila wag nio naman sigawan..at ipamukha sa kanila na mas mataas pinagaralan nio...sila pa rin ang instrumento ni Lord para ilabas tau sa mundo at makapag aral...at makarating sa lugar natin ngaun

matuto naman taung magappreciate ng mga ginagawa nila for us..ilibre nio lang sila ng food or ilabas or bilhan ng gatas at gamot matutuwa na sila sa inyo at mafefeel nila importante sila sa atin..

sana kung pano nio ilibre mga kaibigan nio sa mcdonalds at inuman kaya nio rin gawin sa kanila...kasi ang bottom line in the end..magulang pa rin ang magwoworry at sasalo sau sa oras ng kagipitan..

at sana wag kayong masyadong madamot kapag nanghingi sila ng pera..oo di naman natin obligasyon magbigay ng pera sa kanila..kasi tau rin naman nakikinabang di naman nila pinangsusugal...pinambibili rin ng food para sa mga tao sa bahay....at nakakahingi din naman kau ng pera sa kanila kapag needs  you...

my last post was history already..mwahahahhaha

i always tell myself not procastinate and try to write as much as i can..but well..it doesn't happen right...hahahaha

enihow...i think from the last post i made..quite a few things have happened to me..and now i am on my way of being dc to perm..hehehe..THANK GOD for this wonderful blessing.
now i am writing but too many thought can across my mind i don't even know where to begin...

my family..i have always love them...though i feel sometimes i didnt enough..i measure my love for them for all the materials i have given to them..and looking at the family of my friends..makes me feel..i have not done enough...sometimes i feel closer to my friends than my family..most of my closest friends knows what bugs me...i am not sure if its because i dont want to burden my family...my parents are getting old...not sure what to they want in life..but i know a permanent home will make peace with them..i hope this time i can make this come true...for me and my family...

my job...its always fascinate me to see people who believes in me..and makes me realize how i never think of myself much..in this organization i am now..im glad..there are lot of Filipino coworkers..but sometimes i dont know how to accelerate myself...i need to have confidence in myself...

my fandom...they are still the same LOL...

i want to write something about my so called love with an old friend...we're friends in FB but doesnt really talk that much..sometimes i feel like i still have feelings for him...because i still feel awkward trying to catch up things...but i think..we have really grown apart...

recently...i sometimes think what i did back then...confessing my love and being ignored a little a lol...and it made me laugh and smile..i find the situation funny..then i read something...about being in love with an effeminate guy or gay...its a christian related answer and real life..that makes me think its right...girls like me who have fallen in love with a gay person are under the illusion that we can make them love us..more than friends..but the reality is it is impossible,,,,because they already know who they like and love...and it made me think..ah...even if we didnt part in a good way and might not be good friends anymore...it was something that will always be a good lesson to me..and thank you for Rissa's Love Handles for confirming it...

rev...thank you very much for being a wonderful friend and co worker to me during that time...you  have made my stay with UPS more fun and interesting and memorable..you're still one of a kind..i have never known someone again as much as i know you(its only a little you know)..it makes me smile to see all your dreams are coming true..i do hope you have someone to share it with you...kahit di naman requirement yun..i am sorry...for that confession of love...it made things awkward after that...but thank you rin for not really taking it seriously..i am sorry for leaving you too..sayang i was not there to see you spread your wings but i know you deserve all of it..sometimes i feel like i miss you..because wala pa akong nakilalang tulad mo at nakakajamming ng tulad before..all through the years..minsan gusto ko kitang makita out of nowhere lang...para lang sabihin sau..oi kamusta ka na rev...pero siguro matagal pa ulit magkita hahaha...siguro pagdi ko na mararamdaman na awkward ako sau..hahahaa...dont worry love as friend na lang natitira sa akin..you are one of the few friends na nakilala kong tumatak sa puso ko...actually dream kong kumanta ka sa wedding ko...lol..na ewan ko kung mangyayari ba hahaha...lol...thanks you ulit..

my life...

hahaha..a post title so mediocre...lol..

i do have a lot of things on my mind...which supposed to be off my mind...the reason i decided to write..but i keep procrastinating...so lazy...

today i had my induction training at my company..its the same company..i am like a new hire because i was converted from ac to dc...eheheheh...

it was surprising for me their speakers or presenters for every topic we need to know as new hire for a company..i enjoyed the talk on two speakers...the last one waa quite boring..i know my head almost lolling because i was sleepy..poor guy...i think most of us almost fell asleep...

back to the interesting speakers...i was really surprised because..for me an induction would take about the history of the company..yeah..they talked about company stuff..but their anecdotes make it more interesting because they fill it with interesting points like how to make yourself healthy both in body and mind...

they will pose questions that is basically challenging yourself...it was refreshing to me..because lately i have been really not doing any good stuff for work...and now..i have to challenge myself because i am already a direct contract...its a new beginning for me...back to zero and i have yet to work hard to keep my job...

today as i was writing this...i asked myself..do i love my job? yet i don't have do any extra efforts to make my work more tolerable...i always sleep....hahahha...i have so many things on my mind...i want to clear it up..to give way for other ideas to come up....

i need to step up..be proactive...and contribute...i hope the will will be within me :)

hello 2013

been a long time..time really flies fast its 6 days after 2013....

congrats to me..being in malaysia for 6 months now...yey!!!..hahahaha....

i read back my previous post...i haven't really moved on...but alas i think i made small accomplishments..somehow...i opened my heart to my colleagues here in malaysia...i still have this anti-social habit...i don't really hang out that much...but somehow...little by little i think i am opening my world...

for friends...i will treasure those who people who have been a part of my life...may they be part of my current life or not..because i know..in their own way..they have helped me a lot...

okay enough of the emote stuff...mwahahaha....

my 2013 has not really started with bang...its not really sad...i mean...its lonely because me and my sister was far from my family....miles away....but i am thankful for a good year has passed and looking forward to this year...

i have so many plans...i hope by God's grace all will be fulfilled....

my family...i hope i can make them go here in malaysia....this year..perhaps if i received or signed my extension..hahaha..positive thinking..i will stay for another 3 years or so here...but who knows....

my finances...i hope everything will be much better...2012 has been better for me...but i hope 2013 will much more better....i really need to save up...for a lot of things..XDDD

my fandom..hmmm...i am still looking forward to one day watching TEGOMASU live...hahahaa...my hope of seeing SJM live has come true..they were here last December...makes me appreciate Zhou Mi...and the rest of them...but i hope I can watch them singing without a lot of screaming..i'd really like to appreciate their voices especially Khuyun...so lets keep my fingers crossed....

okay im done here mwahahaha...thanks a lot!!

old life..new life...

hopefully the post title is appropriate for whatever i will blabber today...

time flies fast..october is ending..and im going back home to the Phils for a vacation...wahehee...and visit Bohol..looking forward to spending time with my family and friends and the expenses not so much...

ummm..i need to update my lj header and my blog header...oh i will someday :D

i have been thinking recently...how my friendships are going on these days..two years ago..i have met the most wonderful people in tegomasu fandom...flailing with them..and talking nonstop...i have few friends in fandom..but i dont share just fandom with. them..even some personal things....out of the 5 to 6 people that closest..i have met half of them personally...i think 2 or 3 only remains....

as technology changes and our lives become busier and we have adored other fandoms..somehow we drifted apart..i still say hi to them..but we don't really chat that long like the way before...part of me missed it...and a part of me..told me..this is the time move on...for the longest i have considered myself a loner...hahaha...this was probably after i left acn and then move to headstrong..and fell inlove with my friend..hahahaha...i know i have compared my previous friendship with him with all the friends and people i have met along the way..and i think that was too sad..because somehow i kept my heart on guard...

its been a long time since i really feel wonderful happy that i don't care if i look like a fool..i wanna feel that again.....there's something inside that is missing that even my favorite boys cannot fill in...i feel like i have wasted my life for the last 6 years...though that is debatable...recently i promised myself  to socialize more..with the right people..i mean i still have to careful who to tag along with..because i am easily influenced...will the day come again...that someone will consider me his/her closest friend....am i expecting too much...

i don't want to be known as someone who just go with the flow...but also i am always afraid of being a possessive friend...*sighs*..i really don't know what to do..but i hope to God..i can feel that happiness again...the feeling that you are never lonely because you have a friend or someone i can lean to..

to all my friends whom i have lost, have forgotten and so far away...i always believe..that someday our paths will cross again..don't forget to smile when you see..and i will be glad...

to all my friends, RL or OL..thank you for being part of me..i wouldn't have be able to stand at this time without you along the way..thank you for being in my life...once upon time...:D

wow 6 months after

i never realized i was completely neglecting this blog..all the while i thought this is updated..but look what i found..it was last updated last February..i was still in the Phils, and now I am in Malaysia..so many things have a happened...and in just 4 months 2012 will say goodbye while 2013 will say hello...will it be the end of the world....i really don't know...

a lot of things maybe happening around the globe some were really worse, earthquakes, tsunamis and typhoons..among natural disasters....but people are still standing..and getting all those new gadgets...and I believe its not the end of the world yet...though its sad to know...wars and poverty for some people on the other side of the world....

and a lot of things have happened in my life...i went out of the philippines again..and now trying to survive here in malaysia...now on my fourth month..i feel like im still not at par with everything around me especially in work...i dunno if its me..that i have become prejudiced with everything especially with work...and co-workers

but it pays well and as of today...a big chunk of debt was lifted off from me...YEY..but i still have a long road to take...but slowly im taking steps :) so be proud....

as for my favorite boys...TegoMasu..they are keeping things lovely...its so nice to see them now so comfortable with each other and not so awkward..because believe me...i remember watching some videos of them which they really looked awkward despite them trying to look they really get along with each other...and i think it goes that they are maturing...they are still cute and adorable..but somehow me as fan who watched them for the last 4 years....really is proud of their achievements and how they grew both as an entertainer and a person to me...and im glad that I am a fan of them..

my favorite group NEWS after the heartbreak of the loss of two famous members...stand up and proved to us FANS..that we are worth waiting for...too bad..if NEWS had held their comeback tour at the end of the year..i might try my luck again getting japanese visa to watch them..but I guess i should wait for Tegomass next year..wahahahaa.....Koyama, Shige, Tegoshi and Massu...thank you for standing up for NEWS....it was worth it...stay as sweet as you are...