today

On this day of your life, we believe God wants you to know ... that you've been talking to God too much, and not listening enough. Prayer is when you talk to God. Meditation is when you become quiet and listen to God. You've learned how to talk and ask well. Time to learn how to listen and hear, because God has been answering you.

this is my message from God for today in facebook...and i think it is very appropriate..eversince i went home to the Phils and came back here in China..i always made sure..i am talking to God thru any prayers..and it was the same things that i prayed...but i dont do something about to help me...hahaha..oh actually i did just not whole-heartedly..sometimes i always said..why must life be so complicated when you're an adult..

i envy babies because theirs are very simple, they cry if they are hungry or irritated...they easily smile when something is very pleasing to them...

life is really simple i think...though i dont know why human nature makes it so complicated sometimes...

all through my 3 years stay in China..i think i might have grown a little and think too much..hahaha....or maybe worry too much...but all the experiences i encounter here are much treasured all though some are not really good..but still it made your life right???

i have a lot of things i want to do in 2010...and march is just around the corner and i still don't have any progress on that...i just wanted to write it in here..maybe somehow it can remind me...and come true with hard work and prayers...though i think i must learn to meditate and listen to God...my stubborness is very evident...

things i want to do in 2010

- find a new work that is satisfying(financially and emotionally) and exciting and it should be a new environment..

- travel to Japan..(this plan made it easier when the news of TM live tour came in...but still i think unless my passport has the Japan visa on one page..i can still hope and dream)

- work on learning Japanese as in seriously...i always try to learn things half-heartedly..i don't know..i dont make much effort and i believe that unless you work hard...you will not accomplish something...

the above are the major things i wanted to do...and with God's grace and mercy..i hope I can do it...

oh and another thing...i know as you age and meet different people there will be some friends you might lost along the way...i am not sure..if its really me..or its just that we got different interests now..i do have my old close friends...but i still miss my other friends...*sighs*

TM no UTA DVD

finally the TM dvd will be out tomorrow..but well..fandom is really lucky to have some leakage...i am thankful for fangirls friend who generously shared the links to us...i am not sure if i will be able to do another review in LJ...because i want to be fair to my friends who don't want to be spoiled....so i will blabber away here...

first off..CONGRATULATIONS TEGOMASU!! it was really huge improvement from your Ai-ai gasa live event..i love that you look more comfortable now..though i still find tegoshi looking superior sometimes i guess massu is used to it now...as most us notice..tegoshi wants to shine while massu let him...but don't worry i still love you tegoshi though sometimes your reactions to massu irks me...

on your setlists...i would not probably remember the order of it..but i salute you for keeping up with fast songs..eventhough massu was really out of breath and got difficulty reaching high notes...i will probably just write down my favorite performances...or the ones that really that made an impression on me...

KUSHAMI..when massu started to sing...it was so warm...i feel like you're serenading me..

LA LA SAKURA...tegoshi i always say you never cease to amaze me..you look cute and cool with your guitar on...and massu on tambourines bwahahahaha....

BOKURA NO CINDERELLA..the horses..only you can pull it off...but i love the one wherein tegoshi dressed as a princess and massu as prince..hime-sama and ouji sama....yey...

AME NO - hahaha the one wherein you are on the swing..so cute...

FANTASTIPO..i love your dancing and your voices are still good eventhough you are moving like that....

on the encore....

Katamoi..hearing the intro gave me goosebumps already..i love the CG...so appropriate that it was heart...hehehehe...but honestly you really sound so good...

HAJIMETE NO ASA UNPLUGGED...THIS IS NOT REALLY COMPLETE..THE VIDEO EDITORS CUT THE BRIDGE..BUT IT WAS BEAUTIFUL..HEARING YOUR RAW VOICES..GAWD..IM SO PROUD TO BE A TEGOMASS FAN..WHO SAID JOHNNYS CANT SING..YOU PROVED THEM WRONG MY FAVORITE BOYS....I LOVE IT THAT IT WAS SPECIAL ENCORE...

the documentary...it seemed fun..because the two of your seems to be just playing....its nice to see massu in BTS bwahahaha longer and speaking ...but we had hope that there was a gourmet tour...or probably hotel sneaking...or your image is just too neat..it was not possible..hahahaha...i have to watched it yet with subs..so probably i will understand it more..but well you look kakkoii tegoshi and massu is cute as always...you look both sexy with less clothes..i have i think a fetish for the navel hairline of tegoshi..damn boy..you look so manly when i see it..getting pervert here..bwahahhaa..and massu in singlet and almost boxers shorts....arrghh....

i guess my rant here is finished..i will be including gifs in this post bwahahaha...credits to the maker..i really fail at making gifs...

2010 & TEGOMASU

how time flies...its 2010 the last entry i have was a birthday post for my favorite pretty boy...i didn't post it in my LJ...i kinda fail..

i will be staying for another year here in dalian..hmmm..but i am not sure if its really a whole year..but let's make the best out of it...

TEGOMASU....oh my God..my favorite boys is always giving me heart attacks...just saw the disc 2 leak of their concert..waaaaaaaaaaahh they sound so good....and tegoshi tegoshi so pretty....massu looks like a schoolboy...but so so cute....and lastly i saw this pic..



waaaaaahh PRINCESS YUUKO and MASSU KING....

it really got me excited for the TM DVD....

happy birthday tegoshi yuya

happy birthday my pretty boy!

you're such a special boy..that i wanted to make a post on your birthday...it's been nice knowing you all this time...i look forward to the day i will be not only watching your concert with Massu or NEWS...but personally knowing you.

ramblings

I know I have been restless recently..oh well..it's not the first time happening…it was how do you say…a year in the making now…or probably half a year in the making..such a long time ne?

I am not sure if getting access again in LJ was a joyous occasion for me or my downfall…hahaha…see I am too confusing..that's why I needed to write or rant this out so it can be out of my mind…is this a phase I am going through..fandom wise…bwahahhaa…

I still know for sure I love Tegoshi ->Tegomass-> NEWS…but somehow…I feel like I am in a dreamy land when they are all concerned….or maybe I am just too sensitive….argghhh beng-chan was right….we fangirls only want to see what we want to see in our idols and most of them are good points…I told myself I am not blind to Tego's faults…there are lots…I tell you…but somehow reading other's people blogs and clearly pointing it out makes me realize..is this worth all my time and effort…yeah time..because you even though I am at office where I should be working..i tend to check out things…creating the impression that I am not really serious with work…(which is apparently quite true)…I am not sure if I have become too complacent with work or simply I am bored…until now I can't decided which is it..and imagine I am feeling tired after doing nothing at the office but got perked up when you saw TEGOMASS pics…don't you think that's too much….or too weird….

Someday somehow this insaneness and craziness will go away (I hope so…I remember getting distracted by Lee Dong Wook after practically drooling over Hyun Bin when I was watching My Name is Kim Sam Soon)…or maybe I just need to balance out my OL and RL life….i should have enrolled myself learning Chinese when I was enthusiastic about it..now I am not sure if I will be able to do that…time is not exactly on my side…it's already August in 6 months time, my contract will expire…part of me wanted to stay here...because I am used to it..and it's not really bad staying here….another part of wanted to try something NEW…or better yet getting closer to my dream of seeing Tegoshi Yuya singing live….(still my dream is about fangirling over TY..arrgghhh)

Help me I need to really strike a balance between my OL and RL life…

I think I might need to do another post just telling myself what I love Tegoshi/TEGOMASS/NEWS…

So very random: why did my mind reacted when I saw rather description of my blog got strikethrough in your blog..i know I have seen it before…but I feel like I was seeing that for the first time again…I know I lost the right to be your friend a long time ago..hopefully though i have a special part in your memory…I think once the mirror is broken even though we tried hard putting it back..it will never be the same anymore…and it's about time I find a new mirror…and I am sure you have…thanks again my dear..for those wonderful two years…and i am sorry for the things that I have done that might have hurt you….

TegoMass

Tegoshi Yuya & Masuda Takahisa..known as TEGOMASS or TEGOMASU..

It's been more than a year since I have discovered these kawaii boys…and did my love grow?? Yes!!!!!

Before I was simply contented in listening and finding videos of them singing together which led to me liking their group NEWS….among the other JE groups….

But now…I can't get enough of them especially with their Tegomasu's First concert tour…sadly I was not able to go there…it was too soon…I mean I was predicting it will be in the next few years…but NO!..their first concert was this year…huhuhuhuhu…..)…I do hope it will become a yearly event…please please JE…make it like NEWS yearly tour..demo on side note..i am quite sad since NEWS as a group together don't appear in TV much like the other JE groups..and I have this feeling that they wouldn't be doing any winter concert tour at the end of the year..because it is ARASHI'S 10^th anniversary…

Back to my kawaii boys TEGOMASS…I am really proud to be a fan of this two..why??

• They are both kawaii…
  
• Look at their smile..both adorable and even in your worst day..looking at them can make you smile and forget bad things happening..(I always do that when I pissed off ..i tried to search for their pictures..or simply look at one
  
• And lastly…their voices….one of the best singers among their agency…(sorry biased here)…but really..Tegoshi and Massu has their own distinct voices when they do their solos…but when they harmonized…it's beautiful….i am never tired of hearing it….
  

I have CD's of their single…and they are worth it…though some songs were quite cheesy when translated in English…but still they make it cute by just singing it..and of I really can't resist their VOICE…

As I was writing this post, I am listening to audio recording by a fan who watched their concert in OSAKA, their first show…though not even being there…it was easy to imagine them singing their songs ….and most of the fan reports said the concert was TEGOMASU-like…more on music and with the band and only their voices…I agree with some of them said..they don't need too much stage effects just listening to them is worth it….

Call me crazy or insane(wahahaha I think it's the same)…I cried when I first heard the acapella of miso soup..while having goosegumps…what more if I am actually there at the concert venue…I'm so envious with the fans who got to see them….and also I cannot stop myself squealing hearing them sing LIVE….

I admit..my soul has been pawned by these two…or maybe they are addiction..and I think it will be long time (who knows) that I will be healed…

And please God…hopefully I can watch them next year….pleaseee….

yosh

yosh!!! i did it...yatta...

finally my blogspot has my ichiban's pic as the background image...

*dancing*...

and hopefully blogspot will not be blocked in the place I am in...