alone in the house...after receiving a message from my housemate that she will go out...hehehehe...actually i was outside too..i feel like some negative feelings around me...
i already woke up late..eat breakfast then swam...got a text asking what is our ulam for lunch...and suggested the tortang talong..and i told you...the leftovers not finished yet..we have sayote and chicken adobo..but i was too late already...i got back from my swim..and saw you watching and then eating already...and that's how i feel...something is wrong again..
when you're quiet..in this house...it makes me worried..because i know its something..something is bothering you...as you always say..the house is small..that's why i know when your quietness and just simply being silent or something is bothering you..
on most cases..i can bear the silence..if its just a simple silence..ika nga good vibes na silence..but i can't bear the silence na may hugot..just like what i felt a few hours ago..i decided to leave you..lumabas ako..nagpunta sa rooftop..kahit pano nakalma ako...minsan lang nakakapagod na talaga....minsan di ko na alam gagawin ko...para ipull out ka sa kung ano man iyang kinalalagyan mo...minsan feeling napaunhelpful ko..hay...
Lord give me more strength...
and please please my dear friend...gather yourself and heal na....